In light of the most recent violence against African Heritage people and communities, I have hesitated to post references to my project I Am My White Ancestors. Yet I see articles and pleas on social media discussing the role of white people and I have seen requests from African Heritage people for whites to own their whiteness. So I felt compelled to add my voice.Read More
Here I am with my dear friend Tereza Bottman, who is on my advisory board for I Am My White Ancestors. She is a core member of the Portland chapter of SURJ, Show Up for Racial Justice. I have asked Tereza to help me pick the winner of our raffle from the 13 people who donated $50 and above to the campaign. We are standing in the soon to be opened Columbia International Cup, a coffee and sandwich shop located in Portsmouth, the most culturally and ethnically diverse neighborhood in Portland.
Thanks Tereza for being part of the project and thanks also to the growing list of people who have supported and will support the project. I am so touched. In mid January I will be announcing the next raffle. This time the item to be raffled will be completely different and truly unique.
So I am trying to imbed this idea of not thinking that mistakes are the end of the world into my stubborn brain. I've heard of it, you've heard of it, it's in all the lists of how to be a creative and successful whatever, entrepreneur, inventor, maybe even scientist. Mistakes are expected to happen, will happen, are mandatory even. If there are no mistakes happening, you are just paddling in the shallow end, not diving into the deep end where new ideas live.
These days, I feel terrified daily that I am making mistakes. Each time I ask for help to fund I Am My White Ancestors, I am gripped by fear that I have done it wrong and have lost that person forever. Of course I don't want to loose him or her. I am only asking for money, not their first born child. They can say no. But what if. . . I LOVE MAKING MISTAKES!
It's a good thing I am committed to doing the project. Otherwise I might quit. The project is wide ranging and involves multiple phases, skills, tasks, and people. The mistakes I make are big, interpersonal, and messy. They are not where to put a shape or color. Right now that kind of mistake seems silly and pathetic. But give me a couple of months and I will feel them, too, when I design and paint the backgrounds for the portraits.
Blog post about the process of remodeling my art studio.Read More